But I remember how it feels in your embrace.

Abandoned.

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Fuck this shit, lol.

My heart is stuck with you till the end of the world.

• Phi came over today. It’s been a while since I hardly have the room/house to myself these days. He picked me up and we went to eat KFC. We decided to relive that time where he was hungover and ordered 15 wicked wings, LOL, plus chips and a drink.
• We mostly talked about our families, in particular, his little siblings. They’re so cute -.- And how Phi’s mum used to think Minh (his little brother) was gay for liking the colour pink, LMAO.
• Headed back to my house and napped like fat cunts, LOL. He said I breathe loud and I snore. Guess it shows that I had a nice sleep :)))
• Laid in bed talking and chilling. It felt so relaxing - like there was nothing to care about in the world. We talked about how cute babies are and the things I would buy for my future baby, hehehe - toys, clothes, costumes and everything.
• We discovered that his glow-in-the-dark G-Star shirt glows to make out the word ‘irrevocable’. So awesome :D
• He talked about baby food and how nice it is, LMAO. He said he likes banana and custard baby food. So cute, LOL.
• Phi’s little brother called him and said that his dad asked when he’s coming home. Phi took that as his dad wanted him home so he booted soon after that. Turns out that the little shit was lying and said that just because he wanted him home, LOOOL. I couldn’t help but not get angry at his cute little voice, aaah —”
• I ended up being home alone until 4am and he left at nearly 11pm. Fucken hell —”

I’ve missed spending majority of my weekend with him. Not to mention, I’ve missed spending quality time with him where we don’t have to be out and about, but just simply laying in bed and chilling, talking about the most random shit. If not, then even just napping next to him and waking up the same way is good enough for me.

I wish every night could be like this. But I guess when things like this are rare, it gives us something to look forward to.

Till the end of the world.

Haven’t been in the mood to Tumblr lately. I guess it’s partly laziness and partly haven’t been feeling the best or motivated. But I had a good Friday night so here goes.

• Met up with Phi at Sunshine. There was some weird crazy traffic at the station which made it hard to cross the road —”
• We drove to Highpoint to eat. He already ate at home so instead of the usual large Big Mac or Quarter Pounder meal, he ate a medium cheeseburger meal. It was so weird since he never eats anything small …
• Went to Playtime and got some free toyssssss :D
• Played Battlegear and Time Crisis like usual.
• Went to Glue to bag their clothes again, in particular G-Star, LOL. Garbage bag material shit -.-
• Went back to the car and drove around. Ended up kicking back at some area, watching YouTube clips and playing games on his iPhone. LOL, he YouTubed fighting kangaroos and I swear, they are so hilarious to watch! They are crazy mother fuckers :|
• “Male kangaroos use their sense of smell to see if the female is sexually available.” I died of laughter, LOL.
• Then we ended up YouTubing baby polar bears, meercats and pandas, LOOOL. They are soooo cute. So much laughter.
• We were playing a ‘spot the difference’ game and there was a koala picture. Then he told me how koalas get stoned from eating eucalyptus leaves and that’s why they fall off trees. LMFAOOO!
• Went to Macca’s to eat 50c cones and drink Coke (vanilla Coke, LOL). Saw some of his friends there.
• He drove me home earlier than usual tonight. He was pretty tired and has to wake up early tomorrow. He has possibly found a carrrrrr - finally! Skyline R33 which looks pretty damn sexy, hehe. Hopefully it’s all good and shit. He needs to find a new car within 2 months or he’ll be carless since his current temporary car will no longer be available to him anymore. Poor fella’s been looking for over a year, LOL.

I guess these days, I cbf talking about all the depressing stuff that goes on in my life. It just becomes too much and I can barely handle it as it is, let alone express it in words. Plus, it gets too personal, I guess.

I think that what’s been hurting the most these days is knowing that even the closest person to you can hurt you with the things you’d never thought they’d say and the things you’d never thought they’d think. I guess that’s why it hurts the most - because they’re that close to you, you feel your heart sinking as each thought becomes the words you have to hear.

But when it’s hurting, you don’t know whether they know. You just want them to stop, but they don’t. Yet in between all this mess, there’s love and happiness that can’t be explained.